Understanding Choices

Choices...We all face them everyday.  Some are mundane and we don't really think about them anymore, like what clothes to wear, food to eat, things we post on social media, etc.  Other choices we spend too much time thinking about and then never take any action to start or complete our goals or dreams.  We need to balance our choices better.  We need to understand why we make these choices and then act upon the choices we make, and be ready to accept the consequences if those choices turn out to be wrong in the future.


To give you an example of both the best choice and the worst choice I have made in my life at this time.  I know that my worst choice will shock and surprise most of the people that know me because it was out of character for me to have done it and while I do wish I had never allowed myself to make that decision. 


So the worst decision I've ever allowed myself to make was last April when I almost committed suicide.  Now I know that is hard to hear and there is no excuse for it, but let me try to explain the whole situation.   First off, I was in a bad place in several aspects of my life.  I blame no one but myself.  I didn't reach out to let people know I was hurting and tried to carry the load myself.  Guess what....IT DOESN'T WORK.  We all need each other.  So reach out, ask for help.  Trust me that its better than the alternative. I can tell that I know that when I reached all I could take mentally, I went into like a thick fog where I knew what was going on, but there was no emotion, no thought, no ability to escape it.  It was like the fog was a physical manifestation of melancholy.  I saw no happiness in sight.  But for the grace of God, I would not be here today.  Now you may not believe, and that is your choice, but after seeing the look on the doctors faces, that I was minutes from death and I believe with all my heart I am here because God has bigger plans for me.  I am thankful for everyday I have, for every second I get to enjoy my children, and every moment of life both joy and sorrow.


The best decision I have ever made in my life was to love and be in live with my ex-wife, Brandi.  I am grateful for the years we had together and that she and I, while we may not be in love, we do love and care for each other and are grateful for each other because we have 3 wonderful kids together.  They brighten my day and strengthen my resolve to be a force for positive changes in this world.  I will never be a saint, and I make mistakes, but this part of my life was not a mistake and I am grateful everyday for the years we spent together both good and troubled.


The most important thing to remember is that choices are only up to YOU...Only you can make the choice and only you can choice how to react to the things that happen around you.  If you don't like something, then CHOOSE to be the CHANGE, not whine and complain, as that accomplishes nothing.  The world has never been changed because someone whined and complained enough.  Someone CHOSE to make a plan and ACT on it.  So BE THE CHANGE you want to see in this world.


Here is a clip of one of my favorite movie quotes of all time...ok its more like a short speech.
 
https://youtu.be/jdWO9ozir1Y